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Okay hi.. So it's been a while since S last updated.. And a lot has changed. From good to bad, dramatically. Right now i'm in the middle of... Misery yeahhh.I won't like to share the details with you guys, sorry, but.. Basically the last three days i've cried a lot and.. Before that i was the happiest I've ever been, but all of it crumbled with just one phone call..I dunno it's just so hard for me.(im sorry that you dont know the story behind the "IT")
But i have plans. I am not going to stay this way, i just have two more days to bear this, then i'll go to Tartu, talk to a person and some other friends, and they'll help me through it, i know:) And the other option is that this one person has good news for me.. Aah it's scary to even think about it, i'd be the exact opposite of what i am like now:D if only if only...
Annnnyway, what i've been up to the time i didn't write anything here? I had a job.. I was selling all kinds of berries and vegetables and other stuff.. Got payed enough:) Basically right now i live for Tartu. It's a city about 6 hours away from where i live. Some time ago i had plans that after 9th grade i'll go to high school in Tallinn, but now that i've been there more, and also spent so much time in Tartu.. I've fallen in love with Tartu:D So this is going to be my final decison, where i want to end up. But aaanyways, I only went to work so i could go to Tartu. So after my first paycheck i went there right away. Ón the 29th of Lune i went to Tallinn with my Kristlin, to a little gig, 'Screamo Terror'.. Estonian screamo bands.. loved that. next day i went to Tart anI stayed there from 30th of June until 11 of July. and now it's 20th of July, and i can't stand being here! ...I dont even know how it all started, at first i knew only ONE person from Tartu, and now... all my best friends are there. And i am not hurring with saying this, but really, i can say that i know some of my friends there FAR better, that the ones i talk to here in my homeotwn. It's like i've known them for so long... And it isn't just me thinking that way, my friends back in Tartu feel the same way. I know that cause they are not afraid to say things like that out loud:) It was sooo touching when one girl told me that she's going to miss me so much and cant wait when i come back.. i remember first when i went there on the 30th i was sooo bored all the time cause Rachel (the only girl i knew at first) was away, so i had to spend so many hours just walking around and doing nothing.. i knew one other boy too then but he had to go to work, so after he finished i could have a little fun:) but well basically the next few days i got to know so much nice people.. and i got to know some of them better than others, and saying goodbye to them makes it so hard to be home again.. cmon i have more friends in a city 6 hours away from me than in my hometown!:D it's killllling meeeeeeeeee. not that i'd dislike my home, it and my family will probably the only ones i'll miss when i'll go away.. but yeah.. i just feel better in Tartu.
Okay so briefly, Tartu... nights outside with a bunch of friends, getting drunk and arriving to a friends house 6am after a two-hour walk, when there would've olso been a 20-minute way;
birthday parties with fun and drama all together, a security car looking for a lost wheelbarrow which Remo used to deliver drinks from a departnent store to the house, b-day girls cleaning up a carpet that someone had puked on, which, btw, was in a room no one was allowed to enter;
evenings spent on Pirogov, a nice PUBLIC place where underaged people drink and such, without police doing anything, where everyone knows each other and even if they don't, the still go ask for a beer or a smoke, and they get it with kindness:) nice, uh? someone plays a guitar somehwere, some people playing footbag and the rest just sitting on the grass and talking..
FUCKING MISSING IT ALL.
Luckily i'm going back on Sunday and i'll stay there for about three weeks.. it's bad in a way cause i can already imagine how hard it'll be to leave.. but then hopefully the last school year will pass quikly... Just can't wait. That'd be the end of all my miserable days when I don't have a shit to do.. plus Viljandi and Tallinn would be closer too! yaay^^
oooookay.
Oh. I made myself a nose piercing two days ago. Didn't hurt at all and it still doesn't. My friend told me that you don't feel physical pain that much when you're sad or angry or such. It's true..Right now i have a little thorn, but in Tartu i'll replace it with little hoop.. but i'd have to remove it when i get home tho, cause my mom would probably kill me if i had that in my nose.
I also made myself another blog. it's in estonian but i think i'll be updating it more often than this one.
http://popkorrrrn.blogspot.com/
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[Thursday, June 21, 2007 // 12:12am] |
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GOING NUTS!!!
WOAAAAHHHHH
I <3<3<3<3<3 TARTUUUUU
AND HIM!!!!!BOOYYYSBOOYYSS
peaaata kanaaaa
:D::D:D::DDD
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[Thursday, May 24, 2007 // 9:50am] |
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Finally got myself a new layout. The banner is made by me. I had a bunch of images I wanted to use but I only finished with this one. But I guess I'll be changing them. The Used's new album sounds really good. I've only heard a few song of it, the rest is downloading. I really wish I could buy the original tho. But I made a little calculation, and all my money goes to the music festivals I'm planning to go this summer. And of course the bus tickets there and back.
The First one I'm attending, Lelle Alternatiiv, is on the 6-7th of June, then the next one, Solk Vestivaal is right after it, on the 8-9th. And the biggest, which i'm so exited about, Rabarock (Poets Of The Fall, Pedigree, Clawfinger, Kosmikud, Pain, etc) is on the 15th and 16th of June. And on 17th my friend asked me to come to her graduation in Viljandi, so I can't wait to go there either :] Anyway, I'm gonna have a busy June, that's really good, cause I remember last year in June I was always bored and sitting at home and didn't find anything to do. So yea, it's not gonna be like that anymore.. ^^ Oh and in July, on the 12-14, I'm going to RUTSfest. I hope this summer is going to be the best one ever.
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[Monday, May 21, 2007 // 3:10pm] |
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know what. i'm doing good and i'm fine and i feel happy.
even feels good to say that.
i've gotten quite a few new friends lately. yep. that's what i needed, i kew that.
an innovation in my acquintances.
just did my physics exam today.. ain't getting a five.. and i hope it's not going to be a three either.
on thursday i have the math exam and on next monday history..
since my mom bought me two tickets to Placebo i have a little problem finding someone who'd come with me:D everyone's moms don't allow them to come.. i thought that if i won't find anyone i'll use the two tickets myself, then i'd have a bigger space to mosh.. kkkkk i have a big brain. it's filled with chocolate
okay whatever.
i realllly like Placebos warm-up band. Evaline
http://www.myspace.com/evaline/
i just started to really like them then i heard they're coming with Placebo:D you can't imagine how happy taht made me, a really good newssssss.
really looking forward to it.
aha and turns out that Quinn Allman produced Evaline's EP.. keeps getting better:D
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[Monday, May 07, 2007 // 4:29pm] |
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in a big city sitting on a couch in front of a huge window with a view over the tall buildings. watching the raindrops falling on the window, the sun is setting. a tear falls in the tea cup you're holding. you know you're gonna spend the next day staring at the air and thinking. what do you have right now to make you happy? who do you have to make you smile?
The song in my head
Sia - Breathe Me.
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[Tuesday, May 01, 2007 // 2:58pm] |
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My step-brother felt like throwing my cell phone into a cup filled with sprite. So I had been without a cell phone for a week. But I finally got a new one yesterday. Nothing special, but has everything I need. A Nokia black flap phone. And I'm probably getting a camera pretty soon! Depends on my mom's moods xD It is a Panasonic DMC-FZ7. Cant waiiiit!
Theres 17 days left of school, then we're gonna have the exam period for about a week. I have to do all the exams - math, physics and history. History is on the same day as the Placebo's gig but im gonna do the exam as early as i can then I'm gonna go to Tallinn, and i'll even have about four hours of spare time before the concert. Then the next day we have our class trip to Lihtuania. I have a little problem with that, cause there's no way I can make it back home after the Placebo's gig. But I the bus could pick me up somewhere on the road I guess.
The Used's "Lies For The Liars" CD Bundle is up for pre-order now. So now I have time until 22th of May to get the money. I reaaaallly want thissss. Pre'ordering you get a T-shirt and a special booklet with it. http://www.theused.net/CDbundle/
Oh and the situations in Tallinn are calm, but we can expect a new riot on the 9th of May.
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[Friday, April 27, 2007 // 10:49pm] |
Quick news on the TV : The riot starts again in Tallinn!
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God. It's gonna be even worse tonight than it was yesterday. People have gathered on the streets since the afternoon. Wish I could just stop this.
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I'm watching the news right now.. OH MY FUCKING GOD.. I CANNOT BELIEVE THAT THIS IS THE FRICKIN COUNTRY I LIVE IN AND THAT HAS SEEMED SO PEACEFUL.... dammit. i cannot fucking believe this shit.
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